Lost In The Distance

I learned your name but never felt it

Like I was standing at your door

Every whisper in my head said

"You don't belong here anymore"

I kept reaching through the silence

Trying just to feel you move

But every step I took toward you

Felt like something I'd still lose

But you were patient in the distance

While I was learning how to breathe

I never stopped loving you

I just stopped showing it

Got lost in the distance

While you were holding it

Every mile between us

Was a war in my chest

I was running from you

But you never left

I was screaming at the ceiling

Waiting for a sign from you

Every answer felt like silence

Like you chose what not to do

I started calling it abandonment

Just to make sense of the pain

If you were really there beside me

Why'd I feel so alone in it?

Even though I was blaming you

In my heart, I knew the truth

I never stopped loving you

I just stopped showing it

Got lost in the distance

While you were holding it

Every mile between us

Was a war in my chest

I was running from you

But you never left

Maybe I was just too broken

To see you in the dark

I was blaming you for everything

That was tearing me apart

You were there in every silence

I just couldn't recognize it

Every moment I was losing you

I was the one denying it

I never stopped loving you

I just stopped showing it

I'm somewhere in the distance

But I'm still holding it

Every step I'm taking

I'm fighting my way through

I'm not where I should be

But I'm coming back to you